There’s a point in your lifetime where you’re forced to stop and ask yourself what you’re going to do for the rest of your life.
It’s such a hard question, isn’t it?
I was asked by my teacher yesterday what I wanted to do for my life and the thought made me smile. I’ve known for a while what I wanted.
I’m sure my response surprised her. All she was doing was asking to find what science class I need to take next year, and I was unsure myself of which class I would want to take. Science is a weak subject for me. So, that, in turn, caused her to question my life plans, and I answered her.
“Well, what do you want to do for your life?”
“Influence people.”
She smiled at me and went to question the other students for what science class they would take. What I said is not something you hear young people say these days, and I’m sure many people would ask why I said that.
There’s a point in this lifetime where you’re forced to stop and ask yourself who you really are.
To be truthful, my life has been quite a lonely one. My family fell apart years ago and what remained gave little chance to start over. My household is that of pain. I have no friends I can truly call my own, and yet I want to influence those who would cause me the hurt?
Many times I ask myself that very thing.
But that’s where I’ve found who I am. I believe God has not granted me the friends I beg for so that when I’m in a position of leadership, I can sympothize with those that are lonely as I am now.
I’ve found, years ago, what title I want for myself. Masters Commission Director. I never really thought of myself a leader, but it’s something I feel called to do. If not the director part, then definitely the Masters Commission part. Oh, you wouldn’t believe the stress I’m given over this group. I’ve been called obsessive, clingy, over hasty, etcetera. Who are you to judge who I am or where I’m called to be? The students in that program are the only ones that have a genuine care for me in this world, and I WILL be there one day to change lives as they have mine. A life is a precious thing, and if I can only influence one before my time on this world is up, than my job has been done.
I don’t want to discover a cure for cancer, be hailed a hero, or be well known. But if I can be there to see and help a lost and lonely girl come to find Jesus again, my mission in this world will be complete.
There’s a point in this life where you’re forced to stop and ask yourself what you want to do for the rest of your life. I can say, with a pure joy in my heart, that I’ve found it.
