Life has so many complications. War with self, bitterness, lust, hate, fear, denial, insecurities, selfishness, crime, profanity, carelessness, lack of concern for others, media, divorce, and so much more.
Yet, there are so many wonderful and beautiful things of this world that make life special. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self control; music, selflessness, purity, giving, friends, family, and most of all, a loving Father of a God.
I long and strive so much to be all of those things that make life special. Recently I have tried, and mostly failed, at being more optimistic and to stop complaining all of the time. I want to be an influence in this world. I have to view everything, absolutely everything, with an eye like God’s and to see the good.
Recently, I have been working on a system to stop my complaining and to remain optimistic. My results have been life changing. I can’t believe how many things I have achieved due to my lack of complaining. It has done several things for me: A) it has kept me opedient to my parents. B)It has given me a much more beautiful perspection on life and all of its loveliness. C)It has kept me from remaining too lazy. D)It has helped me to be a peacemaker. E)It has given me a stronger love for people, and helped me overlook my past loneliness.
But most of all, the most important reason out of all of them, is that it’s drawn me so close to God. I’m working on making it a two way relationship, but it’s a struggle. I try to stop talking so much so that God can pour in to my life as well. I guess that will have to be another thing to work on.
I couldn’t believe it, the wonder of God Almighty. I have FINALLY, after so many years of fighting, caught a glipse of it. I have always loved the Lord, but I had never seen Him. I really believe that working on this system, and remaining faithful to it, has given me a life changing experience and change. God, and only God, can fill the void I had always had deep in my heart. I pray so often that my Ones can find that same love in the Lord like I somewhat have. I know it would change their lives forever.
